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"Find you way to me, I know you can."
Welcome to my sanctuary,
A place where i seek refuge, an escape from this hectic society
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The name is Rayerei
21st October 1986
Libra
Singapore
for passion
to reminisce
over melancholy
and freedom
Online gaming
Hanging out with friends
Studying alone
Sipping coffee
Counting money, lol
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| Being a nobody or somebody |
| Friday, February 23, 2007 |
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Well its kinda a nice friday, why not blog a bit since i have got absolutely tons of time to spend with. I have already quit my job as a waiter, reasons....plenty of me to lie openly without hesitation. I dont need to state my reason, also i wont be planning to find another job any sooner. Cuz i am lazy, picky with jobs, rejections from jobs etc. Which reason shall i pick to tell you, hmmm.... With so much time doing absolutely nothing at home, activities are rather....simple. Playing a lot with my Ar Tonelico and Flyff, progress is rather smooth but at the same time boring. Watched tons of tv and i have finally completed my Ouran High School Host club anime. A very nice anime, the ending is indeed touching while keeping the fact that Ouran is an idiot-among-idiots hilarious anime with dramatic plots haha. Time is passing by so slowly, school is only reopening in June but i have like got so much time to spend on. Maybe a little studying, searching for more jobs which i doubt i will ever get one haha. Living in my own cosmosphere has never been so.....addicting.
Everybody starts from a nobody and slowly progress to a somebody. No one is an absolute nobody, neither is anyone a somebody all the time. There are areas where you are a nobody and areas that people recognise you as a somebody. But to progress from a nobody to a somebody, it takes time, hardwork and sometimes even courage. We have a lot of nobodies around us and only a handful as somebodies. Why is there such a difference between nobodies and somebodies? Some said tat without nobodies to start with how do you get somebodies in the first place. Yet without somebodies, you wont have nobodies to make comparison to. Thus the paradox loop begins and the endless debate never end. Our world revolves around a paradox loop, cycles repeating itself time and time again. Lots of nobodies trying to be somebodies, lots of somebodies trying to command the nobodies. I am a nobody to some people, yet i am also a somebody to certain people. Why am i a nobody to you? Why am i a somebody to you? These are the questions only you can answer to me, and not you telling me to search for it myself. I can come up with conjuctures, but only you have the final say.
I always want to be a nobody, so tat i can have somebody to rely on always... |
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"until you find me,
2/23/2007 01:00:00 PM |
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| Tuesday, February 20, 2007 |
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Well its been pretty long since i blog haha, call me lazy or anything cuz there just aint anything to write about lol. My plans lately haha, well the usual: Played Flyff as my routine and finally got my character to Lvl 75, sure too me real long and i can finally use the items i stored for a very long time haha. Brought myself Ar Tonelico to play with though i said tat it wasnt tat good, not tat bad actually once i hands on tat game. Well graphic wise is definitely a hands down haha but storywise is still nice, character development is good and i definitely have a good time diving into the Reyvateil's mind haha, the inner conscience of a person is really bizarre and intriguing.
Well Chinese New Year is here and soon will be gone in a flash. Hong Bao harvest isnt getting better as one continue to age haha, just enough for me to pay my bills for the upcoming month haha. BlackJack gambling wasnt my day this year lol, i lost...haha. I hate to lose lol but it is all part of the win-lose cycle in gambling. Cousins are getting tall, real tall haha but height doesnt proves anything. Cousin Darrell was so alike to me lol everyone keep talking about us haha. How would i noe that we would be dress almost the same, much less look alike haha. Yah that cousin of mine is growing up fast, i wont lose to him *starting height sprint mode!!!* haha. Played mahjong again as usual with my cousin, Sassy and Nic. Started out quite late cuz Nic has to go over to her cousin's house. Started the ball rolling at a slow tempo, after tat it was obvious that i was gaining the momentum. Sassy was on a downward spiral losing streak, everyone was SIANZ at the way i was ummm...taking away their money away haha. Sorry lah didn mean to, just a friendly game remember haha. Well i was winning so i was the friendly one lol. In the end i was the only big winner, i kinda feel sorry for Sassy for being the biggest loser BUT when i notice that he got lots of Hong Bao with some $50 inside, i changed my mind IMMEDIATELY and i realise tat i wont feel bad AT ALL winning his money. Donate to the poor ah ===> me haha
I thought tat all along i was the one who he doesnt trust. Now i realise that i was the one who actually dont trust him. Conflicting trust, so much misunderstanding and worries all for nothing. If only i were to trust him more things wont have gone out of control. But i am happy, really happy now tat i am in the wrong and i am good tat i was wrong. All the worries that i have, gone into the drain. No more worries, no more unhappiness. I just want thing to remain as it is, just like the innocent shine.
2 wrongs do make a right, sometimes.... |
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"until you find me,
2/20/2007 12:19:00 AM |
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